Other Side of the World

Over the sea and far away

Went on a visit again.

She's waiting like an Iceberg

 Brought the results as usual

Waiting to change, 

Same date, same place.

But she's cold inside

Nothing changes. Except that I brought a friend.

She wants to be like

A teacher, really.

the water,

The first visitor. I don't know if she will be the last.

All the muscles tighten in her face

We get on the bus to the columbarium.  

Buries her soul in one embrace

It's quiet, just like any regular visit I made.

They're one and the same

Just that I'm going to show my teacher where my grandmother has taken pernament residence

Just like water

 It's very personal. But I feel she has a right to know.

Then the fire fades away

 We visit her father first. She smiles when she sees him, and introduces me to him.

But most of everyday

Her offering is merely a simple breakfast of a hotdog bun and milk

Is full of tired excuses

It's evident how much she dotes on me.

But it's too hard to say

I don't deserve it.

I wish it were simple

There are things that I am not entirely truthful about

But we give up easily

But I plan to keep it like that

You're close enough to see that

Until the time is right, she will come to know

You're.... the other side of the world

She's the one who knows me best

to me 

My other mum.

On comes the panic light

We now go to visit my grandmother.

Holding on with fingers

Her eyes fall on her portrait

and feelings alike

And the one next to it.

But the time has come

That's a side of a family history I don't mention

To move along 

It's kinda sad actually

Then the fire fades away

 She wipes the portrait clean and examines the dates on the slates

But most of everyday

I point out the birthdates and the day in between

Is full of tired excuses

She smiles and makes small talk with my grandmother.

But it's too hard to say

 Even though they haven't met

I wish it were simple

She knows alot about her and me

But we give up easily

It's that something we have

You're close enough to see that

Just that my grandmother isn't here anymore

 

You're.... the other side of the world

She can't see what I'm doing now.

Can you help me?

 I don't know what else to do

Can you let me go

 I feel lost without her

And can you still love me

Hurts a little bit now

 

When you can't see me anymore

I still think it's my fault

Then the fire fades away

There are people who keep telling me not

most of everyday

I want to believe them. But the inner demon says otherwise

Is full of tired excuses

 He/she still has the hand around my neck

But it's too hard to say

 I'm wearing a smile I cannot seem to wipe off my face

I wish it were simple

 My teacher's here

But we give up easily

She know's what I'm going through now.

You're close enough to see that 

The guilt, agony...

You're.... the other side of the world

She's on the other side. There's nothing I can do

Ohh.... the other side of the world

Just go through my life as it is now.

You're.... the other side of the world

I'm never gonna see her again.

To me.

sucks.

The other side.